A Open Letter To My Daughter on Her First Birthday

My Dear RM,
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I'm in utter disbelief that believe you joined our family a year ago today. As cliche as it sounds, it really feels like yesterday that Dr Joe placed you in my arms and said we had a little girl. A girl. What a surprise that was! I'd wanted a boy so desperately, and didn't think I would be a good mom to a girl. You changed all that in an instant. You wouldn't remember this, but after I double checked you were indeed a girl, I kissed your little vernix covered head and whispered, "We've been waiting for you." 

I loved growing you inside me, bringing you into this world and laying eyes on you for the first time. That's the moment my life really began, when all the "things" fell away and I was finally granted my one wish of becoming a Mom. Meeting you was the most incredible, awe inspiring moment of my entire life. I wish we had it on film to show you one day, but alas, we were a bit preoccupied, and rightly so. 

I'd heard so many horror stories about becoming a mom, ranging from the birth, to the lack of sleep, the list goes on really. It made me a little nervous I must admit.
Your birth was incredible. The lack of sleep was rough, but it didn't last forever. 

​We moved from Melbourne to Brisbane when you were only 8 weeks old. We emptied our entire house, put everything in storage, rented out our properties and moved to Brisbane. Still not sure how we pulled it off, but you were an absolute angel.

I was worried that I wouldn't cope well in Brissy when your Daddy traveled for work because I didn't have Kiki, Poppa, Nana, or Opa here to help me. But boy did we manage.  You and I didn't just survive, we thrived and had so much fun. Sadly, you'll never remember the times we shared, but trust me when I tell you that we lived it up! We had breakfast in our jammies on the floor every morning, we swam in the pool, shared our dinner together outside while watching the airplanes and the fruit bats swoop through the sky. I loved nursing you, and still nurse you to this day. We cuddled every day, danced to country music and played on the floor for hours and hours.

​Being your mama was easy. I want you to know that. 

It's been an honor and a privilege to be here with you every day. It's something that I will never take for granted. I know these are the good ole days, and I wouldn't trade fame or fortune if it meant being away from you. 

Tonight I was washing up after dinner and you looked at me from across the room, beaming a cheeky smile of pure joy that I swear could warm me on a cold winter night. The way you look at me melts away all my insecurities.  I wish I could see myself through your eyes little one. You make me feel like a hero and inspire me every.single.day.

​Life before seems like a distant memory. Your Dad and I love you more than life itself.

Year one down, and so many more beautiful memories to make. I want you to know that you will always be my greatest love story of all time. ​

​Love Always,
Your Mama ​